🚀 Creative Fear MasterClass
on creating what we need(ed) most. *hard launch* *pun intended*
Hello loving souls,
I hope this holiday season is being loving to you — I am sending you love and warmth and hugs, as I know this can be a challenging time for so many people.
Today, I’m bringing this paid offering to you with a great deal of love, nerves — and irony, or perhaps that’s what we sometimes call alignment.
It’s finally time to share with you a project that has brought up so much fear, resistance, and perfectionism within me I can’t even begin to explain.
Every stage of this journey has brought up challenges for me — with glorious pieces of ease, pleasure, and flow sprinkled throughout.
In particular, I want to thank the 50 people who let me be curious about their creative lives and aspirations and interview them this summer. I learned so much from you, and saw so many of my own doubts, fears and life experiences reflected in yours.
And this is the part I’ve been dreading the most — because it’s where so many of my fears have the capacity to unfold in real time. Rejection, backlash, failure, success, imposter syndrome, judgment, and many more…
what are you, what are you so afraid of?
I’m scared to be charging for this work. I want my work to be accessible, and I also want to honor my time, knowledge, and energy, and make this work (all of it) sustainable as a career. Holding these two (I changed “but” to “and) has been a struggle throughout this process. I did come to a creative solution that I’m interested to see unfold, which I share more about this on the website. I’m scared of criticism, and (changed again from but) I’m accepting that some people will not like or support me for taking this step. I know that my podcast and TikTok and 95% of my Substack are all free, loving, meaningful resources I’ve devoted hours of my time to — and will continue to do. There’s a lot to unpack underneath all this, clearly lol. (Note to audience: whenever I say lol I am masking some underlying discomfort, like most of the collective)
This is a live experience, whereas most of my work is recorded from the comfort of I-can-edit-stuff-out. I’m scared something happens that I can’t handle, and I embarrass myself in front of everyone.
This is a digital manifestation of me stepping into the next evolution of myself as a creator/creative. I’m scared of the uncertainty of what that means.
I’m scared it “flops” and no one buys it. (Note to witnessed-self: Interesting, I mostly have fears of public humiliation or backlash, I feel I’m more able to sit with private failures. Am i afraid of disappointing myself or my-image-of-self?
In the face of these fears and many more, I feel so aligned to this work, because every single reason I find for not doing it only proves to me why it’s so necessary.
Who am I to be doing this? Well… It’s not good enough. Well… What if people are disappointed by the end result? Interesting… I just need to keep editing it until I have it perfect. Of course you do.
A more powerful question? What if I can help other people face this fear.
So, my darlings, here it is, an invitation to join/support/purchase my 3 hour live MasterClass on Creative Fear on Zoom on January 21 from 9am-12pm EST / 2pm-5pm UTC on everything on understanding, facing, and alchemizing fear. It includes everything I wish I knew sooner. All the information is on the website, and you can submit questions you may have right here.
I hope that in its own way, this experience helps set us all up for a creatively fulfilling new year. I hope that we can all experience less fear and more flow in 2024.
P.S., with facing our fears, comes the gift of pride in ourselves. I am so proud of myself for seeing this idea through, and letting it unfold into a manifestation I wasn’t originally imagining. I thought it would be a pre-recorded course of 4 modules. It became a live MasterClass of 1 module. Here’s to letting it become! Thank you always and ever to my best friend and creative family
for supporting me through every step of this process. I would be entirely lost without you.
i am so thrilled for you to start this!listened to the ‘let it become’ episode yesterday and i am happy to see you are ~letting it become~ and moving forward even in your fear<3
this is soooo cooool, amazing , talented, brilliant never been done before 🤩 i can’t think of a better course to be part of and learn from!!!!! and so thrilled you’re facing your fear and creating this 🌸🌼💐🪻🌾 it may sound crazy coming from me but i really believe that in some form or another you’re a teacher through and through!!! full of wisdom!!!! and about the paid part i completely understand, and i want to remind you that it’s okay to do that, and it’s a way to make it sustainable 🌸🫶🌼 plus it’s better as you’ll not be “alienated” from your creative work i think it’s absolutely fine 💗🌾🪻💐✨🌸🌸 can’t wait for it 🥰