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EXCREM3NTAL.698's avatar

Love this invitation.. right in the middle of a dissolvement of a calcified feeling of anxiety, eroding its' masks to reveal a deep memory. The words I wanna offer to myself and you are; pace is everything. Go as slow as the slowest part of you want to go. Come back to your 'natural' state of rest. Observe what there is to observe. Treat yourself like you were carrying a sacred life within you. You posses the tender gift of responsibility- to their safety, their channels of expression, their foundational feeling of joy and wholeness. I wanna offer the knowledge that you dont have to have overview over all the things, cause you are already it and they are already you. Today I dare to walk as if 3000 of my ancestors are supporting me, rooting for me, loving me and guiding my way towards radical care. Today I listen to my deepest colors, shapes and paces soaring within my center below my belly button. I let go of my mind and reasons and arguments and i let my center speak cause there, i know something, without words. I know i wanna reach for the stars so i must delve deep through the craters of my souls hidden crevices and reefs. I am connected. I am here. I am breathing. I am the waves of the ocean, the chromatic stardust. I feel therefor i can be free, as Audre Lorde said. I am in constant tuning in and observing of what arises and what need. I starve the ego to feed my soul. I am asking questions. I stay curious. I dare take time to hold myself- i scan to loud parts of my body and to the silent ones, where are they located? I lay my warm palms to the silent parts and transfer my energy into those places. I am agency, authority and dilligence. I am gut. I am space between my out and inbreath. I am. I am small and slow movements, sways, caresses, tiny turns with my head, as tiny as they can be, to get all of the parts with, maybe only the thought of a movement is enough. I am my own guardian, parent - today and all days ahead: I deserve the world! I observe without judgement the taste in my mouth, the smells in my nose, the sight of my eyes, the soundwaves in my ears, and listen how my breath is a part of sound picture. Everything is where it should be, also me. I am becoming what I am becoming. I am the best version of me right here right now. I am incomparable. My art is like no others. My smile is like no others. I am in love with the look in my eyes. I cant get enough of the way i talk, i eat, i ask, i move, investigate, - the way i love and i care is like no others. I must have it over and over again. I am the earth and the earth is me. I am force of light, the depth of darkness, the body of water, the quality of air and the power fire. I am the universe experiencing itself. I hold this embodied manifestation of life, while miracles of nature (/God) move through me like a river. I drink of its blessings, of its sacred fluids. I fuel my body while surrounded by abundance. I am fertile land. I am juicy soil. I am dripping leaves. I am shining nuances of green and lilac. I am soft mud and shimmering reflections. I am bending worlds. I am crossing realms. I am shifting cells. I am rolling streams. I am not broken I am broken open. I am mending the wound i got as a child. I dare feeling the pain and lostness, and i'm presenting my self as a radiant warm deity to my lonely child self. I am appearing in my childhood bedroom, beaming with potent softness, dense acceptance and roaring love. I offer my shining hand to the small kid. I look at the luminous calm face and wipe my cheeks. I reach out and take its hand. We embrace. Finally. Inseperable. Sparkling lights swirling around us. My chest filled to the brim. Warmth. Closeness. I stay here. For as long as i need. Relaxing in the arms of my creator. From here i can bloom, grow and sprout. From here I can be. From here I am everything i ever wished for. From here I am the world. From here I am life. From here I am. I am.

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aĆÆsjjj a's avatar

ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø reading this restored my strenght and compassion that i needed rn or reminded me of it (kif/kif) and was so beautiful and warming to read, muww ayshekk/thank you for sharing and inspiring && much more ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø

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EXCREM3NTAL.698's avatar

Aiii im so happy for ur response :,,)) thanks for reading it and sharing how it made u feel aĆÆcha<333 love u so deep and high and wide <33333

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aĆÆsjjj a's avatar

:’))) love you barcha ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø

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EXCREM3NTAL.698's avatar

:,,,) wa habibi'<333

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Alexis Williams's avatar

ā€œThe way I love and I care is like no other. I must have it over and over againā€

Wow 🄹🩷

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dejuan gilchrist.'s avatar

so touching

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Sonic's avatar

That loving voice is my own. You’re going to be okay, your vision is clear, now go out and speak to what you’ve discovered. Die in your voice of reason. At the core of spirit is a quest to further love. You’ve learned the limitations of matter, a heart made of matter can grow sick if uncared for or neglected. Don’t let your rage cloud your wisdom. Monsters don’t exists. The manifestations of abuse, neglect, manipulation, bear no fruits that nourish. Apathy too is temporary and a byproduct of those mentioned above. You cannot shame the abused into healing, it’s unwise. Protect the children, or the effects will show up at your doorstep, every time. Every single time. Now go tend to the garden.

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Sonic's avatar

When I say effects matter, there are physical symptoms of trauma that people are walking around with that effect functioning and other areas of the body. Build ups of fluid over the head that can effect memory, cognition, awareness, etc. That’s how you get people who feel like you’re talking to a brick wall. Without addressing the physical symptoms of trauma you’re essentially yelling at a broken leg asking it to reposition itself, bandage itself, etc, without actually doing those things. Most people do not have the time to break down or a safe space to do so. Or even have the knowledge of what’s going on with their minds. Healing takes more time than capitalism allows. Some people won’t be able to heal from the trauma they endured and those are the saddest perspectives. Don’t forget in the beginning they came here just like you. And that will always be the truth. It’s the everything in between. No one is above or below, but the physical symptoms of trauma are real

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EXCREM3NTAL.698's avatar

Healing takes more time than capitalism allows... Amen

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ThandoTalks's avatar

Felt! 🫠🄹

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Lize's avatar

you deserve to be. you deserve to be all that you have been, all you could have been, and all you are still becoming. let yourself explore and embrace the world and let it, in turn, embrace you.

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Nichelle <3's avatar

the world is waiting to see you, to experience your art, to know your love, so live your life. release yourself from the cuffs of the past you’re past is only a mere part of you but it is not ALL of you, so allow yourself to be free and live.

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erin's avatar

what a lovely email to get in my inbox, thank you ayanda!

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it's ok. it will be ok. you have more people around you, that have you in their thoughts, than you know.

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Jun B's avatar

Love this idea and feels right on time for me. Today I need to hear:

Feel more. All of it. And then some more. No need to judge. It's all just love in the end anyway.

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Nichelle <3's avatar

i absolutely love this

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touchedgrass's avatar

this is so beautiful

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AimƩe Falzon's avatar

Break

Break apart, into pieces

Erupt, explode

It will never be too much for me

I can hold all of you

I'm not scared of what's inside you

I can witness that within you

I can hold that within you

That I know hurts and terrifies you too

You cannot trust yourself

But you're with me now

I've got you

Break

And I see you

Break

And I hold you

Break

And I am still beside you

Break

And I love you still

Always

I love and hold all of you

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Lili's avatar

One day, you will see that not everything you build and love ends in loss. That you deserve restoration and ease. You deserve to wish and receive. It's not impossible

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Rachel's avatar

Words for my soul:

you are worthy of the journey. be kind with today. decisions will unfold and you will roll with the waves. unclench your fists, they cling so tight that the love can’t get through. have faith, baby. trust your inner voice, you already have what you need.

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quixotica's avatar

It is okay if the loneliness causes you to become undone. You can put yourself back together again and again.

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Kerri B's avatar

You can do anything you want, just believe in yourself.

I am at a moment of real indecision and would love someone to say that to me, in a way that goes straight to my soul. I have one person in mind who has passed to the other side. Sending love to you and anyone reading this today!

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touchedgrass's avatar

with all your might, hold onto hope.

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Sania's avatar

Aw, as if I don’t love flea markets enough already—you make me love them even more in a special way! Words I’d love to hear are: ā€˜Everything is going to be okay; you’re doing so great, kid’ (I’m using the word ā€˜kid’ here because I imagine this divine source to be an elderly —something about being called ā€˜kid’ feels light). Also, one of my favourites is from your podcast title: ā€˜What if the opposite is true?’ Another one ā€˜Those dreams and visions are planted in your mind for a reason, and they want to come to life as much as you want them to. Believe in yourself so much that you make it come to life.’ Lastly, " when people say that everything meant for you will come to you—that is real, its real believe it"

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midnight moon's avatar

you can always start again. it's never too late int the day, the week, the month or the year for you to pick yourself back up again. time is not lost. don't chase it. let it move through you. ā¤

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Seedings's avatar

That my worth isn't based on how productive I was today. It's okay to rest.

xoxo to everyone - you've all got this.

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luce's avatar

you are growing and you are good.

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Bex's avatar

I love this so much<3

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Sania's avatar

same

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Phelo's avatar

This is amazing timing.I need to hear that I'm doing well, I am still grieving a loss I still can't comprehend.The grief has me questioning a lot of things and to an extent not really "living"( just going with the motion and hoping for the best). Its okay to soak in the pockets of pure ecstasy life offers sometimes.

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ThandoTalks's avatar

Right now I'd appreciate hearing the words "I've got your back" or maybe an "I love you even when you fail"...

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Oona's avatar

I heard: ā€œholy focusā€

felt like closing my eyes and trusting while on a roller coaster!

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Erin Hunt's avatar

You are forgiven! For not knowing better, or not serving yourself or others better in the past. There is no such thing as lost time. You've gained so much wisdom that makes right now the ideal time to go forward boldly and bravely.

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Neema's avatar

The world that you are seeking exists. You simply need to persist.

These are the affirming words I need the most today.

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Dez (it/its)'s avatar

you can hold space for yourself and you can hold those heavy feelings <3

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Jessie Raye's avatar

This life is worth living and love is everywhere.

It is in you, around you, and it sits next to you, holding your hand. Love is always there. It always has been. It will always will be.

You are so loved. You are so lucky. You are taken care of, supported and believed in. No matter how messy life gets or you think you are.

The mess is beautiful. You are beautiful. And love will never leave you.

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Amaru L. Taylor's avatar

You are loveable in all your ways in all your forms in all your eras. You are deserving of rest and joy every day. You do not have to give from an empty cup and you deserve to be poured into. You deserve people that want to pour into you

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Semausu Sa Pulayakgojana's avatar

...that swift spiritual justice is finally unfolding... these are the words i seek to hear being whispered and caressed into my being

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RidgeCoyote’s Howling's avatar

We notice what you do and treasure your being. Our experience would be incomplete without you and whatever hurts or grievances are between us, let’s let go and help and support each other to make the world better.

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blooms's avatar

Try anyway.

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cšŸ’œ's avatar

Your flesh is not a prison. Your mind is not a prison. There’s gravity but you know you can fly. You know you are made to be loved and cherished and to love and cherish. And to feel and cry. It’s all too much but it’s bearable /because/ there’s more. This is not the end. Your presence matters. Your health matters. Your feelings matter. Every day you are reborn. Everyday there’s change. Be weak. Be fully you. Be open. Be kind.

Forgive yourself. Let go and embrace new. Touch and be touched and learn and give. Also to yourself.

You are accepted. You are seen. You deserve what good comes your way. You will figure it out and you’re allowed, you’re allowed to make mistakes.

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cšŸ’œ's avatar

You deserve not stretching yourself thin. You deserve to be held and supported. You deserve to speak freely and be listened to. You do not have to feel shame. Rest now.

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