this made me cry and also made me miss my best friend. i actually started reading this in lieu of doing my own morning pages, so this was a very sweet nudge to go write. thank you always. 💖💖💖
This made me feel so much. It made me feel every emotion I've ever felt all at once. I am so filled with life in me and it's bubbling. I'm so excited and I feel your essence. I feel myself too. I feel so seen by seeing you, I can't describe how you have made me feel. Let me go rejoice
Ok first, No-judgement space creation, How come it feels so distant to me? sounds like basics self-care but I honestly feel like i dont understand it.
Small story: I hold some low vibration energies (resentment) that I act: I reply comments on different reels about "migratory politics" in Texas and other USA (empire) things . I know my words are not even the 0.00000000001% of the pain (and devastating consequences we deal today and affect today) that their ancestors commit to my ancestors and way of living/values, etc. Hence I try to not judge my actions but I realize at the same time that this behaviour is destructive. One: it wont cause awakening or care from people that don't care. Instead it just harms me, instead i should just try to focus on my own care and my own advancement. And it sounds counterproductive but at the same time something tells me that it isn't? this is why I haven't restrained myself from doing it.
I'm shameful perhaps but I don't regret it. HOWEVER, it does take a TOLL on me.
'Soulnley', I luuuuv this concept! not sure if you refer to this but the way i understand it is that by being completely transparent and even dumbly-vulnerable (how i call it) in social media (IG and fb repost) in my experience, i feel like i create a sense of making no-sense to people, but at the same time I do? I do make sense and the people that have reached out and showed me support in one way or another have become my almost *only* friends these days. they all live in different countries and most often it feels like i will never meet them in person (this didn't matter until i thought about it a few weeks ago).
I feel you about tech companies. they have harmed my psyche, i don't know exactly how much and I'm trusting that not too much and i'm healing and positively growing in control about my time, my attention, my ideas, etc. but yeah! I KNOW the feeling.
I have and I am learning so much from you and I think i wouldn't be able to thank you enough.
Take care Ayanda, Always a BIG supporter of your AMAZING work! I love you.
morning pages!!! my friends have started their own jaunt through the artists way, and while im similarly daunted by the whole 12 week shebang this is great encouragement! at the very least i can start making a juicy playlist.
Morning pages have gotten me through so much, been such a beautiful safe space just for me. It’s been months but early on I also changed the rules to work for me; like writing more if Im not done expressing myself. AND/OR continuing where I left off in the morning anytime of the day if I’m moved to, that’s how much of a release it is to me.
I’ve loved the morning pages since I started my artist way journey, and I love how you’ve personalized it. Even more I love how you described journaling and the intimacy of it.
I love how you made morning pages your own based on your needs. I also recently started morning pages and I’m on day 8 now. This is the most consistent writing I have done in a while, and I agree that you get so much out of it. I realized how much I have to say and already have running through my mind so early in the day. It’s been nice to have a place to put all these thoughts down, like you said without judgement. Thank you for sharing! Always love reading your work :)
Loving soulnley both because it is a profound poetic word for the state I felt trapped in for so long, and because my silly brain is having fun trying to wrap my tongue around it 🙏😋
I wasn't familiar with this existing practice! I'll have to look at it. I do something I call WordFlow, which came out of my tendency to perfectionize and edit while writing. Every morning, (and sometimes other allocated times) I write into my journal with each word coming as my pen gets to the next line. So I don't have the space to overthink which word to use or edit or anything. Often I don't even start it coherently, just writing random words until my brain wakes up. Usually I end up writing really interesting often nonlinear poetry. Sometimes full pieces. I used to write poetry very rarely.
Sharing bc I'm happy there are so many ways to engage with a writing practice and growth around our specific tendencies and blockages!! I've never been able to get myself to consistently use other people's systems for almost anything, so taking bits of inspiration and then designing my own has always been my stylings. Much love! 💖
This is my first read of your work and I subscribed instantly! Everything you said spoke to me, and the way in which it was said resonated even more. I wanted to ask if you've written anything more elaborative on your thoughts regarding consumption vs. creation, because that is a challenge I am currently struggling with myself. Where do you yourself draw the line between spending hours just reading novels/substacks/poems/stories/memoirs/etc...(there is so much to read in the world) and writing? Sometimes I get caught in the notion that I need to read more in order to write more, but then other times I know I'm just reading simply to feed the addiction. Do you have any tips on managing this urge to consume words rather than create?
this made me cry and also made me miss my best friend. i actually started reading this in lieu of doing my own morning pages, so this was a very sweet nudge to go write. thank you always. 💖💖💖
This made me feel so much. It made me feel every emotion I've ever felt all at once. I am so filled with life in me and it's bubbling. I'm so excited and I feel your essence. I feel myself too. I feel so seen by seeing you, I can't describe how you have made me feel. Let me go rejoice
My mind is exploding, loooove this post!
wow! I'm still jaw dropped. Wait.
Ok first, No-judgement space creation, How come it feels so distant to me? sounds like basics self-care but I honestly feel like i dont understand it.
Small story: I hold some low vibration energies (resentment) that I act: I reply comments on different reels about "migratory politics" in Texas and other USA (empire) things . I know my words are not even the 0.00000000001% of the pain (and devastating consequences we deal today and affect today) that their ancestors commit to my ancestors and way of living/values, etc. Hence I try to not judge my actions but I realize at the same time that this behaviour is destructive. One: it wont cause awakening or care from people that don't care. Instead it just harms me, instead i should just try to focus on my own care and my own advancement. And it sounds counterproductive but at the same time something tells me that it isn't? this is why I haven't restrained myself from doing it.
I'm shameful perhaps but I don't regret it. HOWEVER, it does take a TOLL on me.
'Soulnley', I luuuuv this concept! not sure if you refer to this but the way i understand it is that by being completely transparent and even dumbly-vulnerable (how i call it) in social media (IG and fb repost) in my experience, i feel like i create a sense of making no-sense to people, but at the same time I do? I do make sense and the people that have reached out and showed me support in one way or another have become my almost *only* friends these days. they all live in different countries and most often it feels like i will never meet them in person (this didn't matter until i thought about it a few weeks ago).
I feel you about tech companies. they have harmed my psyche, i don't know exactly how much and I'm trusting that not too much and i'm healing and positively growing in control about my time, my attention, my ideas, etc. but yeah! I KNOW the feeling.
I have and I am learning so much from you and I think i wouldn't be able to thank you enough.
Take care Ayanda, Always a BIG supporter of your AMAZING work! I love you.
- Asia
morning pages!!! my friends have started their own jaunt through the artists way, and while im similarly daunted by the whole 12 week shebang this is great encouragement! at the very least i can start making a juicy playlist.
- mj
Morning pages have gotten me through so much, been such a beautiful safe space just for me. It’s been months but early on I also changed the rules to work for me; like writing more if Im not done expressing myself. AND/OR continuing where I left off in the morning anytime of the day if I’m moved to, that’s how much of a release it is to me.
I’ve loved the morning pages since I started my artist way journey, and I love how you’ve personalized it. Even more I love how you described journaling and the intimacy of it.
I love how you made morning pages your own based on your needs. I also recently started morning pages and I’m on day 8 now. This is the most consistent writing I have done in a while, and I agree that you get so much out of it. I realized how much I have to say and already have running through my mind so early in the day. It’s been nice to have a place to put all these thoughts down, like you said without judgement. Thank you for sharing! Always love reading your work :)
Loving soulnley both because it is a profound poetic word for the state I felt trapped in for so long, and because my silly brain is having fun trying to wrap my tongue around it 🙏😋
I wasn't familiar with this existing practice! I'll have to look at it. I do something I call WordFlow, which came out of my tendency to perfectionize and edit while writing. Every morning, (and sometimes other allocated times) I write into my journal with each word coming as my pen gets to the next line. So I don't have the space to overthink which word to use or edit or anything. Often I don't even start it coherently, just writing random words until my brain wakes up. Usually I end up writing really interesting often nonlinear poetry. Sometimes full pieces. I used to write poetry very rarely.
Sharing bc I'm happy there are so many ways to engage with a writing practice and growth around our specific tendencies and blockages!! I've never been able to get myself to consistently use other people's systems for almost anything, so taking bits of inspiration and then designing my own has always been my stylings. Much love! 💖
This is my first read of your work and I subscribed instantly! Everything you said spoke to me, and the way in which it was said resonated even more. I wanted to ask if you've written anything more elaborative on your thoughts regarding consumption vs. creation, because that is a challenge I am currently struggling with myself. Where do you yourself draw the line between spending hours just reading novels/substacks/poems/stories/memoirs/etc...(there is so much to read in the world) and writing? Sometimes I get caught in the notion that I need to read more in order to write more, but then other times I know I'm just reading simply to feed the addiction. Do you have any tips on managing this urge to consume words rather than create?